18 weeks, yea! I feel like I can't hide it anymore. Not that I really ever tried to hide it, but it didn't really look like a baby belly until now. It looked like the, "Oh, she gained 10 pounds" belly. But now, I think it has rounded out to look more like there's a baby inside there. It still might not be totally obvious to people who don't know me, but I feel like it's obvious.
I've tried to eat healthy my whole life. I limit the junk and don't drink soda, except an occasional Coke or Pepsi. But with this pregnancy, it has been so hard! I've mentioned it before, but it has been so much worse lately.
Take yesterday for example. I was doing some cleaning and the kids were playing really nicely so I didn't want to stop. But, I was getting really hungry, like to the point of almost being shaky, so I knew I needed to eat something. Jaxon asked for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich so I decided that's what I'd eat too. As I sat down and took the first bite, I gagged. I spit it out, told myself to stop and just eat. I was starving and needed to eat. I tried for a second bite, but gagged again. It drives me crazy! I just want to eat for Pete's sake! I try to mentally prepare myself (because I believe that the mind has so much power over the body) and control the gagging, but I can't! It's not working!
A few minutes ago I tried eating a banana, but couldn't choke it down. I opened the fridge and freezer to find something. I spotted the Rocky Road. That went down just fine! And, I scarfed down Barros pizza and wings without a hitch a few nights ago. What's the deal? Why do I gag on the healthy stuff and crave the junk? It's totally not my usual diet and I don't feel good when I eat junk. (I'm usually fine with fruits...peaches, grapes, berries. Usually it's the veggies I been having trouble with.) My poor little baby is going to be lacking healthy vitamins and minerals! I was so good at eating healthy with Jaxon and Henry.
Also, I am in desperate need of exercise! I need those endorphins. My body was so used to high does of natural feel good chemicals before I got pregnant, so now, I am so moody! I get annoyed for no reason and then I get annoyed at myself for being annoyed! I get impatient with Jaxon and his 4,597 outfits he likes to wear in a day. I get in bad moods for no reason. Sometimes, I get sassy with Devin (well, that's not that abnormal). What's abnormal about it is I do it when he's just trying to be helpful. I don't like it. I was not a crazy person with my other pregnancies. This one is really different.
Any helpful suggestions? Any at all?