Don't Quit

Don’t you quit... You keep trying.  There is help and happiness ahead.  Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don’t come until heaven.  But for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come.  It will be all right in the end.  Trust God and believe in good things to come.  

--Jeffery R. Holland

I love this.


And I needed the reminder.   I've been a little worried since Thursday.  Here's why:


I started out excited as Devin and I went in for an ultrasound hoping to find out if we were having a little brother or sister join our family.  The ultrasound tech said it was too early to tell the gender, but she kept asking questions about if I had any spotting.  I told her that I had, but it was a while ago towards the beginning of the month.  Then she seemed to be taking random pictures of my uterus, not the baby.  She didn't have any signs of concern in her voice, so I didn't get worried.  She showed us back to the waiting room and said the doc would call me back in a few minutes to go over the ultrasound.


They called me back and I waited for like 20 minutes in the little room wondering why it was taking so long.  When the doctor came in, she told me they found something strange in the ultrasound.  She said the baby is healthy and growing fine, but there is a "bleed" in my uterus and it was pretty big.  They didn't know why it was there because the placenta and uterus looked fine.  She even called another doctor and asked what they thought about it.  The ultrasound tech wanted to call it some kind of hernia, but typically, the blood would be behind the baby, where with me, it was in front of the baby.  She wanted to send a STAT referral to a perinatologist for a special ultrasound.  And until the perinatologist figured out what the problem was, I needed to be on strict bed rest.  That's when I lost it.  Bed rest?!  Are you kidding?  I have two kids, how can I be on bed rest?  I can't lift my kids or laundry, I can't vacuum or cook.  I thought only really sick pregnant women whose babies where in danger got put on bed rest.  Plus, lately I feel sick in the mornings and as long as I go walking at the Y, my nausea goes away.  But, if I skip the gym, I feel sick all day long.  Exercising helps me and I do not like feeling sick all day long!


When I had bled at the beginning of the month I am almost positive it was from lifting weights at the YMCA.  It was the only day I did weights and it was the only day I bled.  It makes sense.  So, my motherly instinct says that things will be all right as long as I don't do anymore weight lifting, but I bed rest isn't necessary.  But, I am still panicking at the thought of something I did may have endangered my baby.


So, I saw my doctor on Thursday afternoon and she said she would send the referral over first thing in the morning because their office had already closed for that day.  On Friday morning I was able to set an appointment for Monday.  It was a bummer to wait over the weekend, but relieved that the appointment was as soon as Monday.  (Patience it not one of my best qualities.)


On Monday morning I got a call from the perinatologist's office saying they weren't contracted with my insurance so I would be responsible for the $680 ultrasound plus the price of the doctor consultation, which could range from $181-$1,000, depending on how long we met with him.  (Seriously???  That is just so ridiculously overpriced!!!)  I called my doctor and asked them to send the referral to an office that accepted my insurance.  After waiting a full day for them to do that I was able to get appointment for Tuesday afternoon.  Then, this morning (Tuesday), I got a call saying my insurance has an "inactive" status.  Are you kidding?!  I went through this yesterday!  I just want to know what is going on with my baby and all of this insurance garbage is going to make me have a stress meltdown!!!


I called my insurance and Donna told me she was working on my case today but wasn't sure yet if I was approved because she didn't quite understand Devin's income situation.  Here it is:  He's a teacher, but he is not working because school is out for the summer.  But, he has another job at a place called Mathnasium where he works part time.  I don't know why that was confusing, but it was creating issues with proving correct income.  So, more waiting and stress while Donna called the school district to see what was going on with Devin's income.  She figured it out and just called to say I am approved!!!  What a relief!!!


And, Devin has been a champ with everything.  He has helped so much with the house and kids and gets upset if I try to do anything besides rest.  He's the best!


I know I am a dramatized pregnant lady, but this has been so stressful!  Now, a little stress is relieved because the insurance issues are straightened out, but now what about my baby???....  I just pray they can figure it out today and be confident that bed rest isn't necessary as long as I don't lift weights!